The Baby Blues {Guest Post from Megan}

Hi! My name is Megan, and I blog over at The Mrs. My baby just turned four months old, but I’d like to share with you some raw and real emotions. Be blessed!

I had the baby blues.
I had them bad.
And no one even warned me about them.
70-80% of women experience them.

I just wanna jot down a few emotions I felt so that other mommies out there, or mommies to be, won’t feel like the Creature from the Black Lagoon when they experience them.

I was mad at myself for getting pregnant.
I resented feeding my child because it was painful.
I became mournful of the “just the two of us lifestyle.”
I got mad at myself because I didn’t know what to do.
I once told my baby to “shut up.”
I did have the urge to shake my child out of frustration.
(Don’t worry, I laid her down and walked out of the room)
I became angry when other people wanted to hold my baby.
I cried for no reason.
I cried because all I wanted to do was sleep.
I became saddened when I compared myself to other moms.
I did not enjoy my baby.

This last one is a doozy, and unless you’ve experienced it, you will think I’m a terrible person. I did not fall in love with my child immediately. I chalk this up wholly to my birth experience. I knew I gave birth to a child, I even got to see this little bundle, but I did not get to spend (much) time with her while in the hospital. It took me about 4 weeks to truly say “I love this baby.” I cried when dressing her once because I found a onesie that said “Mommy Loves Me.” I could not bring myself to put it on her, because I didn’t know if it was true or not. So many people told me to get ready to experience love like never before. Well I felt guilty because I didn’t. I had to grow into it. Now, I kinda believe that I did indeed love her, I just hadn’t felt it yet. But, this emotion is real.

Baby blues and Post Partum Depression are no joke.

Talk to someone daily.. multiple times daily.

I am a firm believer that my baby blues didn’t turn into depression simply because I talked it out with my husband constantly. He encouraged me, and supported me. He constantly told me that what I was feeling was normal, and ok. He loved on me and told me that I was a good mom. It’s so important to be open and real about your post partum emotions!

Did you have the blues? Leave some of your experiences in the comments section so that other mommies reading this can relate to several different experiences!

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